Yesterday was a pretty long post but today’s is going to be much shorter. Here are some little things I’d like to mention:
*Fatigue – If you are ever unlucky enough to find yourself in this situation, I can’t stress how much fatigue will come into play. You’re up all hours. There is no real down time. And after a long stretch, it begins to wear on you. My dad and I are both feeling the effects of this. At times, we are walking zombies. I fell asleep twice today sitting in a chair for a few minutes each time. But it is the closest thing to a nap you get.
This also raises a question I toss out to my friends in the craft out there – How do you keep your energy levels up in a situation like this? I feel drained and focusing is a real struggle. Any advice would be appreciated.
*I’m numb to the mundane. I just could care less about little things I had looked forward too like checking the mail or the sports scores. My dad asked yesterday if I wanted to take a couple hours off tomorrow night to play some poker. I almost always tried to play on Wed. and Thurs. but I haven’t played since the week before Christmas and frankly I don’t know if I could keep my mind on an entire game. I did watch 5 minutes of the ClubWPT last night on tv but that’s about all the poker I’ve had.
* My mom had a decent day. She was pretty talkative today and we had a couple good discussions. She did tell my dad though this morning that her sister’s birthday (her sister died a few years ago) was coming up – next week I think - and that they just might be celebrating it together this year and that would be nice.
I’ll end by totally switching gears here and mentioning a couple stupid bumper stickers I kept seeing on a car in the hospital parking lot when my mom was there. One bumper sticker said Thank You Pres. Bush! which made me wonder if the person had been living under a rock lately. But that sticker was next to one that said Mike Huckabee 2008. That pretty well explained that.
January 8, 2009 at 6:33 am |
I am not sure how much help I can be to your question… To be honest, I have this odd ability to sleep wherever and whenever I want. I think it is a defense mechanism because I am not pleasant to be around when I am tired (and that is putting it nicely.)
Have you tried any grounding work. Not ritual within the circle, but just simple grounding?
January 8, 2009 at 6:06 pm |
I haven’t had time to try anything which is really the problem. There is no real free time until late at night which by that point I just want to eat and go to bed. I may try and work in like 15 minutes or so when watching her this afternoon if she is napping. I was thinking about that this morning.