The bird sits perched in it’s cage. I’m not sure I’ve heard it chirp one time since my mom came home for hospice care. It’s in a different part of the house away from everyone at the moment so it probably senses something is wrong. It use to sit in the room where my mom is now and she talked to it everyday. It’s actually my dad’s bird but she’s the one that really got attached to it.

My mom had a pretty good day today overall. A hospice nurse came and bathed her and washed her hair. She didn’t nap much during the day and actually had a couple visitors in the form of two old lady friends she’s known most of her life.

Maybe I looked worried because my mom looked up at me this evening and said, “I’ll be here in the morning.”  It came unprompted. She does look extremely pale this evening. Most her color seems to be gone. My dad and I also are a little concerned because her urine output was almost nil today. At some point, her kidneys will shut down – we know that – but we’re hoping she holds on until my brother arrives Sunday night. It was good though to see her have a pretty lucid day.

Personally, my morning got off to a rough start. I’m being pressured to make some decisions considering my job and really what it is boiling down to is planning a course of action for what comes next in my life. I have some money saved up but could I possibly be doing this in a worse economic time? Figures released today say 2008 saw the worse job loss since 1945. I just hate having to deal with this right now but looks like I need to start giving it thought.

My dad is exhausted. I think he yawns every five minutes.  As opposed to me who is yawning every six minutes. :) He’s planning on taking it easy around here tomorrow with no job related work and just watching my mom. Sunday is my long day so I will try and get out for a couple hours tomorrow night at some point just to catch a breath of fresh air if nothing else. In the meantime, the bird sits in her cage, looking at me everytime I walk past and not making a sound.